Ok, so I’m a little ADD. I can’t keep things the same for too long.  I change the background on my computer almost weekly. I decided to change the background here. I’m surprised that I kept the other one for as long as I did. I chose this particular one because of the girl on the right. I am in the process of losing weight, and she will be a reminder of what I am shooting for. I will try to keep this background until my goals are met. I also chose it because it’s green.

Lots of changes are in the air for me, and I just love it. For me, the same old thing, day in and day out, is depressing. I need things to change, even if it’s just a little. Just to get a new shirt, or even paint my toenails a new color makes me feel better. I don’t think I will have any time to be depressed or stuck in complacency for quite some time. There are so many things that will be changing over the next 6-12 months. I will be sure to post them as I am able. But for now, I will leave you wondering. <cue suspenseful climatic music>

I weighed again this morning and I’ve lost another 3 pounds. This puts me at 210, making my total weight loss at present a glorious 30 pounds. I would really like to lose at least 10-15 more pounds before Christmas. I will be signing up with Curves this weekend (early next week) to try to help with the endeavor. My wonderful boyfriend has been so encouraging and has motivated me. He is also trying to lose weight and get into shape. It has really been an easy transition this time with my diet. I really don’t feel like I’m missing out on things. I give myself occasions to eat foods that normally wouldn’t be on my diet so that I’m not tempted to really overdo it. I’ve done well with cutting out the pastas, which I was afraid would be one of my hardest tasks. Pasta and cokes are two of my biggest weaknesses. I allow myself a coke every once in a while, but haven’t had any pasta lately. I have even found a high fiber, low cal cereal with flaxseed that I really like. When I bought it, I thought it would taste like cardboard. But much to my delight, it’s actually good. I eat that at night when I’m hungry but it’s too late to have a meal. It satisfies me until morning. I have been eating oatmeal for breakfast, allowing myself one sausage biscuit a week. I try to make it a Friday treat. Lunches and dinners have been mostly soups and/or salads. I really like doing the soup thing. It’s so easy and inexpensive. I have found some really great ones in the can, and I’ve been making some in my crockpot. I just love the crockpot! With the holidays coming up, I will have to be extremely cautious about my choices. I’m really glad that I’m signing up for Curves before the holidays so I will be able to endulge a little. But I’ve come too far to go overboard. With the addition of exercise and tenacious portion control, I should be able to continue losing, even with the multitude of temptations.

I just love that God is moving so mightily in my life in every area. Things are absolutely better than I could have ever dreamed. I am seeing His hand moving on my behalf everywhere I turn. It’s a beautiful process. He has taken the hearts of my boyfriend and me and knit them together in such a powerful way. I am truly amazed at the depth of love we feel for each other in such a short amount of time. The joke of our relationship is that “a day is as a thousand years with God”. He has no constraint of time. He can make something take as long (or as quick) as He chooses.

In the ever continuing weight loss saga, I got on the scale again this morning. I have now lost a grand total of 27 pounds! This is from my heaviest to where I am now. This is very encouraging, especially since I weighed yesterday, and I lost 3 pounds in one day. My goal is to lose about 23 more pounds by Christmas. This goal is more than acheivable. I was able to go down one size in my pants about 2 weeks ago, and now those pants are getting a little roomy (not roomy enough to warrant a new pair yet though. Shucks). Oh well, if I keep things up, I’ll need a new pair before too long. I’m actually enjoying this! WHEEEE!

I am absolutely in the best time of my life. So many years I spent wondering if God simply forgot about me and my desires have come to an end. God has definately not forgotten me. I am reaping the blessings of many years of waiting and trusting. Yesterday I got a new car! It’s a 2007 Hyundai Elantra and it’s wonderful. My precious boyfriend found it Friday and did all the negotiations and got a great deal. God has moved in amazing ways with regard to vehicles in my past, but this time I truly believe it’s going to be different than it’s ever been. I just am in complete awe of His richness and provision in my life. He is showing me that when we are faithful in the small things, He will be faithful to us in the big things. I won’t even pretend to think that I’ve always been faithful and true to God, but He has never failed me. I have made many mistakes throughout my life, and because of those issues thought that I didn’t deserve the goodness of God. And I don’t deserve it, but because of His grace, He gives to me abundantly more than I could have ever dreamed. He is rewarding the faithfulness I did have, while buidling me toward faithfulness in the areas that I have fallen short. He doesn’t give based on our merit, but based on His justice and righteousness. He gives in His time, when it can bring elevated sight and accuracy in our lives. The blessings of God may not come in our time (in fact, they rarely do), but they always come at a time that will yield the maximum results. I believe that this time in my life God is building me  so that I can impart into the lives of others. Waiting on God is always worth it! I’m so glad that despite my frustration of the moment, God honored the true cry of my heart to never move in my life outside of His PERFECT timing. Life won’t always be easy and rosy, but there is great comfort in knowing that He holds us in His hands and wants only good for us. His heart is towards us, not His back. He has not forgotten or forsaken us, no matter what it may look or feel like. And everything does truly work to the good for those who are called according to His purpose. I love my Father!